I was so scared to share the first medium post but then…
I was so scared to share the first medium post I ever wrote.
Writing was something I did on good days to unwind. More than good days I wrote on bad days because writing is a cathartic experience for me. I think since my 6th grade I write a diary. Initially I personified the diary and gave it many names. While starting my day log, I would address it with that name.
I am not an ardent reader. But I am a reader. I like to visit book shops and just spend time browsing books as a pick me up on low days. If I see a book lying around, my instinct is to pick it up and flip pages, skim through it.
But writing? It is a beast. I have huge respect for writers in my heart. I run a dance production house. For the first dance show that I was curating, I wanted to get a few lines written for the emotions piece we were going to showcase in the show. I asked a few people from the team who were hobby writers. I liked whatever they wrote. I am incapable of critiquing something that I cannot do.
So when I wrote my first medium article, I was nervous. I was nervous to put my thoughts in a written format out there. Yes, being a creative director at my dance production house most project ideas stemmed from me, so writing was not the first time I was putting myself out there. But in most of my dance projects, its a creative expression, its a thought being executed, most of it is experimental and fictional. But when I write, I write my personal stories, my thoughts. So mostly it is me expressing myself in a very raw form.
As with any new tasks, habits or skills, the comfort level increases a little bit each time you do it. Writing brought the same comfort with each new public post. Today, I do not hesitate to open medium and start writing. Nervousness level has decreased, I would not say it has disappeared completely.
Initially, I would write and publish. Now, I can review my work. Lately, during review I can also improve on certain sentence structures and rephrase my thoughts in a better way.
As of today, I have written 50+ blogs. Someday I want to write a book. Let’s say in the next 6 months I want to publish a book. Ok, let us give it a date. Umm.. today is Feb 16th so 6 months from now is Aug 16th. The date sounds good. So taking up the task for myself to publish a book on or before August 16th. Now that I have publicly made the declaration, I better get to the work.
